15 days to go!

We're down to the wire as "J-day" is quickly approaching.

I've been putting together the nursery (which should be finished this weekend) and thinking of how quickly my pregnancy has gone.  It seems just like yesterday that I found out I was going to be a mother.  I've been thinking about all the hard times like going through pregnancy virtually alone and all the joyous times like when I found out I would be having a son.  I can honestly say that nothhing about this period in my life has been particularly easy, but it's definitely made me a stronger person.

A couple of weeks ago I had gone through a moment of doubt as the "30 day mark" hit and it started to sink in that in four weeks, Jace would be here and I would be responsible for this tiny, fragile life.  As the days passed, I continued to have this doubt and thought maybe I wasn't ready.  There were times that I had considered adoption just so I wouldn't impact my child's life in such a negative way.  THEN I started doing things just for Jace like putting the bedding in the crib and hanging up all his clothes, and putting together a changing table and just like that, I realized there was no turning back.  Jace and I have each other and if we never ever have anyone else in our life, we'll always have each other.

15 days to go and I might be terrified, but I'm also excited to be a momma.