45 days to go!

"What's in store for me in the direction I don't take?"

Jace will be here in 45 days and once again, I have no idea where we will be going once we leave the hospital.  It was planned that we would go to Richmond for six weeks while I was on maternity leave so Ryan could bond with Jace and learn what it was going to take to raise a child...after a certain bit of information that I had recieved on Saturday, though, it looks like that won't be happening. 

I had asked God for a sign as to why I shouldn't move to Richmond and, as much as it kills me, I recieved that sign.

It would seem that Ryan has found a new love interest and it isn't me...or Jace.  When I found out, all I wanted to do was crawl up and cry as hard as I could (I actually did cry as hard as I could on my way home from Richmond on Saturday).  After thinking about it, though, Ryan isn't worth my tears.  I may have hurt him, but he's hurt me 100 times more and that is not a person that I want to be with.  Jace is coming whether I'm ready or not and I have to be strong for him...so what if he doesn't have a father who wants to be in his life?  He has plenty of male role models who will love him and ONE day I'll meet Mr. Wonderful who will love both of us. 

45 days to go, and everything is going to be alright!

The Baby Shower

I can officially say that I've had a baby shower!

Lots of planning went into planning my "perfect" baby shower and although SOME things didn't go as planned and some people didn't show up like they said they would...it still turned out beautiful and wonderful.  We had lots of food, lots of fun, and lots of laughs.


 Here is the onesie decorating station.  The "big kids" got to decorate onesies for Jace and the little kids got to decorate onesie cookies using frosting and sprinkles.  TONS of fun!

We have some finished products.  All the onesies turned out wonderful and I can't wait for Jace to wear them.

My momma and I:  I honestly don't know what I would do without her.  Sure, she is hard to handle at times (who isn't?) and she uses "tough love" in a different sense of the term--but she has helped me through so much.  We wouldn't have had as much fun as we had at the baby shower if it wasn't for her!

The cake from the baby shower that one of my daycare parents made for me.  I was just expecting this sheet cake with some decorations on it--but when she brought this cake in, I was FLOORED!  I couldn't believe how wonderful it was and I'm so truly blessed to have people in my life who would do something like this for me.

I think the biggest disappointment of the afternoon was Ryan's "no show".  A lot of people had counted on him being there (especially me) and when he didn't show up it really hurt my feelings.  I know that I should have expected it, but I still have hope.

All in all, it was a wonderful day and I'm happy that it went as smoothly as it did.  Now, it's time to sit back, relax and get ready for little Jace to get here! :)